why i write

I imagine you, reader, sitting on the other side of your computer screen wondering who is this crazy woman so full of words her body is practically bursting with them? What do you want to know about me? What about me is noteworthy or interesting?  Regardless of who you are, or the skin you wear, or where you lay your head, at the core I believe we are more similar than we are different. Each of us carefully woven together by a beautifully imaginative God, purposed in His heart to love and be loved.  Lately I find myself chasing after the Object of my affection in the deepest sense. To know Him more has become the urgency of my spirit... yet not to know for the sake of knowing, but to know for the sake of making Him more known.

The Jesus I have come to know is ravished by me. I am His favorite {don't be offended, you are His favorite too}. This love that goes beyond all comprehension is overwhelming, relentless, and radical. Should our response not be the same? Christ climbed a tree and died for me, is there any price too large for One who love me this much?  Yet somehow I encounter a sleeping, apathetic American Church. One lacking power and passion. Consider for a moment that a THIRD of the Godhead resides in YOU... what then can you not accomplish? When all of the powers of hell come knocking on our door, we have power to withstand, yet instead so often we offer a watered down Gospel and compromise to meet the needs of man. 

This is not the spotless Bride of Jesus' heart. This is not the beloved who searches Him out in the darkness of night. Who endures beatings just to know Him more (Song of Songs 5:7). Who will stand for the Truth.

Yet winds of change blow. There is an urgency... just has he has stirred within me a desire to know Him more, I sense it all around me as well. He has planted His word in my heart... given me a voice... Believe me, I have argued with Him about these things I sense Him calling me to... I have had all of the "this one or that one are more qualified, more eloquent, more able" discussions one can have with God. And then He reminds me of Ephesians 3:20, and reminds me through the words of a dear friend that my calling is simple. It is to be all He imagined as he knit me together. 

Perhaps this blog is about my own journey to understanding Him more. Perhaps it will just be Jesus and I, hanging out as I learn from Him the unforced rhythms of grace (Matthew 11:28-29, the Message). If that is the case, it is more than enough. But should He bring you along to join me in this journey, I pray you take it seriously... seek out this treasure with all that you have and all that you are! Nothing else matters in the light of eternity! 

I also ask that you would hold me accountable. That you would search out scripture and test and approve anything you may find written here. That you would hold me close in prayer and trust that I shall be doing the same for you, friend.